Contributions to the tribute of Rose Lee Gelesky

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Pebs posted a symbolic gesture

Saturday, April 30, 2016

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Pebs lit a candle

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Hi, Mom, Happy Mother's Day. A little early. My heart aches for you.It seems like I can't move on like Roxanne or Ralph. It's harder for me. The two of them are different, they think of themselves, or other people. The kids are having lots of problems. Roxanne has her self to take care, & her friends. She thinks she saids she worried about me, that is justifieds that she is all ways right. She needs help!! She has no respect for me & my feelings. I'll do it my way, when I want, how I want, to live. She yells hangs up on me, she must GROW UP!!!! You brought me up strong, yet she thinks I'm not. How many times you told me if Roxanne had this, whatever she would have a nervous break- down! I love her, trying to have patience & put they are going. I pray for it. You told me to look after the both of them, I have to stop they don't need me, they have there lives & friends.I am sure you are looking down & watching what is going on. How they are! They treat their friends with more respect & go out of their way for them. I love you mom sorry to tell you things, but you told me first, how it would be. I Love you so much. I liked when in Reno, you would fax me to do our coffee every morning. Roxanne does not know all the things we did. We were BEST FRIENDS, we al ways knew what the other was thinking, we were so in tuned with each other. So much. You just can not for get that. We had each other. I love, hugs & kisses to you. They are not bad, they just don't know the hell & back we went thru together.A very strong BOND!!!

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Pebbles posted a symbolic gesture

Friday, April 8, 2016

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Pebbles lit a candle

Friday, April 8, 2016

Mom, Hi Mom! We all miss you a lot. Mother's Day is coming soon. I know you are Happy in Heaven. But, I am having a hard time accepting that you are gone! They say I am lucky that you passed in my arms, that is a gift, that you were not alone. I know Jesus was their cause I felt your soul leave your body when you passed. I will always miss & love you so much! Please watch over Christopher & his family. Beauty I hope is with you. Please have a Happy Mother's Day! I sent you a carnation up to you. Love, Hugs & Kisses, Pebs XOXOXO

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Tuesday, August 4, 2015

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Roxi Williams posted a symbolic gesture

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

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Tuesday, August 4, 2015

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Roxi posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

Mom, There isn't a day that goes by that I'm not missing you, my heart still hurts. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for watching over us. You are so loved and missed. God Bless you xoxox

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JOHN posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

MISS YOU CASTLEMEYER

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JOHN posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

miss you Castlemeyer

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Monday, November 4, 2013

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Monday, November 4, 2013

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JOHN posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

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JOHN posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

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Monday, November 4, 2013

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Love you Mom xoxo posted a condolence

Monday, November 4, 2013

A mass was said in your name. It was so beautiful. The chorus was made up of young to older kids & they sang beautiful. I know you hear them from Heaven. They played your favorite song Amazing Grace. Beautiful Mass. I miss you so much, their r times I wish u could hold me, or put your hand on my shoulder or I can hold you & tell u how much I love you. When you were on this earth there was so much I should of done. Now u are gone & it's too late. All I do is pray, have masses, talk to you, cry its not enough. I was wrong And I am so sorry Mom. I wish I could turn back time. Its my lose & I have to deal with it. Thats what is hard. But today is your day, your in Heaven, with God, your love ones, Beauty, Please pet her for me. No pain, just beautiful as you always are. I love you & miss you, Pebs xoxoxo

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Rhonda Ann posted a condolence

Sunday, March 31, 2013

HAPPY EASTER MOM. I WONDER WHAT IS IT LIKE WHERE U ARE, IN HEAVEN. I MISS YOU & BEAUTY VERY MUCH. A FEW DAYS AGO I WAS WAKING UP IN MY BED & I HEARED BEAUTY CRYING & CRYING. I DID NOT TURN TO THE OTHER SIDE TO SEE HER, I WAS AFRAID, BESIDES I WAS CRYING ASKING HER TO COME TO MOMMY, MOMMY LOVES YOU, BEAUTY NO CRY, MOMMYS HERE. SHE CRIED FOR A GOOD TEN MINUTES, I COULD NOT BELIEVE HOW LONG.THEN IT STOPPED. I HAVE BEAUTY'S PJ'S & YOUR SHIRT I BOUGHT U. I WRAP BEAUTY IN IT & U BOTH ARE RIGHT NEXT TO ME. I TOLD BEAUTY WHY I PUT HER TO SLEEP, SHE WAS SICK & MOMMY DID NOT WANT HER TO SUFFER NO MORE. THAT SHE WAS GOING TO BE WITH U. I HELD HER TIGHT & CRIED & CRIED, TRYING TO TALK TO HER & THAT I HAVE HER ASHES SO SHE CAN BE WITH ME ALL THE TIME & WHEN IT'S MY TURN TO GO, I WILL BE THERE FOR HER. I KNOW U BOTH WHERE SICK & NOW U ARE NOT SUFFERING, U ARE WITH GOD THE FATHER & HIS SON JESUS,MARY HIS MOM,ETC...EACH TIME SOMETHING HAPPENS I AM SLOWLY COMMING TO TERMS WITH UR DEATH. BUT IT DOES NOT STOP THE LOVE THAT I FEEL IN MY ACHING HEART FOR U BOTH. I NEVER THOUGHT MOM & BEAUTY WOULD GO. I SHOULD OF LIVED FOR TODAY WITH BOTH OF U & NOT FOR THE NEXT. I AM SO SORRY. THIS IS MY GREATEST LOSE IS LOOSING BOTH OF U. SOMETIMES I CAN NOT FUNCTION WITHOUT U BOTH.ROXI & JOHN DO NOT GET. WE WERE VERY CLOSE & IN TUNE WITH EACH OTHER, WE BOTH FELT EACH OTHERS PAIN, LAUGHTER, CRYING & LONELY NESS. NO MATTER WHERE WE LIVED. MY MOM, BEST FRIEND & EVERYTHING IS GONE. THEIR IS NO ONE THAT CAN HELP ME, THAT WE HAD. IT WAS SPECIAL BUT NOT LONG ENOUGH. BUT I AM SO LUCKY & GREATFUL TO HAVE HAD U IN MY LIFE. I HOLD ON TO THE MEMORIES LIFE THAT I STUCK TO ME. I KNOW U ARE BOTH HAPPY IN HEAVEN & I AM HAPPY FOR U BOTH. WE HAVE PALMS & BALLOONS IN THE ROSE GARDEN FOR U & BEAUTY, FLOWERS WILL COME NEXT. WE ARE SPENDING EASTER WITH THE WHOLE FAMILY, WHICH I KNOW IS MAKING U HAPPY, I GOT THEM A EASTER HUNT FOR THE KIDS & ADULTS, PLANTS, CARDS & MONEY, WINE, PASTRIES, MADE THE EASTER BASKETS WITH ALL KINDS OF TOYS & CANDY OF COURSE. IT WILL BE A GOOD DAY, BUT YOU & BEAUTY WILL BE VERY MISSED. I LOVE & MISS U BOTH, HUGS & KISSES XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO PEBS & MOMMY XOXOXOXO

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Rhonda posted a condolence

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Mom I just want to tell you how much I LOVE YOU & Miss you so much. Always & Forever, till we see each other again. Give Beauty a Kiss & Hug for me, tell her Mommy loves her very much. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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Rhonda Fitzsimmons posted a condolence

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Dear Mom, I know you have been watching me from Heaven, so I do not have to tell you what has been happening to all your kids. Happy MoM's Day. I put a balloon for you. I never forget you Mom. I cry alot for you & Beauty. I love you both so much & miss you so much. I still can't believe you are gone. I feel like you are still in Pa. John said that we should take a ride to visit Tony. I can't, if you are not there I don't know what I will do. I am so scare to find out.Because I have not called to talk to you I cry more. You would think that not hearing from you that in my mind you are gone. But I still have you alive in Pa. I don't want to face that you are not here. Life I can face, You & beauty I can't!!! It is too painful, I can't do it, It hurts too much. My mind can't handle it. It gets harder ech day for me. I LOVE YOU MOM & BEAUTY!

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Pebs posted a condolence

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Dearest Mom, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,WE ALL WERE HERE,FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY,CAKE, BALLOONS AND WE HAD A MASS SAID FOR YOU. I HOPE YOU WERE THERE WITH US.JOHN BOUGHT YOU A BIG BALLOON.WE CELEBRATED YOUR BIRTHDAY LIKE YOU WOULD WANT US TOO.WE ALL MISS YOU.I CRY STILL IN THE MORNINGS OVER YOU AND BEAUTY. I AM SURE YOU KNOW THAT SHE IS NOT DOING TO GOOD. PLEASE GIVE ME A SIGN IN A WAY THAT I WOULD KNOW OR COME TO ME IN MY SLEEP, I HAVE TO KNOW WHEN IT'S TIME. I LOVE HER SO MUCH, I KNOW YOU WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF HER AND SO WILL GOD.RALPH IS GOING TO BE A DAD SOON, I AM SURE YOU KNOW. WE ARE STANDING BY HIS SIDE, BOTH OF US, WATCHING OVER HIM.ROXI REALLY IS GOOD WITH HIM. ALOT HAS BEEN HAPPENING, WE ALL HAVE BEEN SO BUSY, I HAVE NOT WRITTEN TO YOU IN A WHILE, BUT I DO TALK AND CRY FOR YOU.WHEN BEAUTY DOES PASS, THEIR IS NO EASY WAY OUT OF GRIEVING.IT WILL BE 15 YEARS, SHE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME, SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH IT ALL WITH ME.I WANT TO DO GOOD FOR HER. I AM FINALLY GOING TO GET MY BREAST FIXED, I AM SCARED. ROXI ALWAYS PUTS THINGS TO ME AS ITS NOTHING, YOU'LL BE FINE AND LOOKS AT EVERYTHING THRU ROSE COLORED GLASSES. SHE HURTS AND I LISTEN AND HAVE COMPASSION, SHE DOES NOT FOR ME.IT'S LIKE I AM NOT TOUGH ENOUGH, BUT SHE CAN'T HANDLE THE LITTLE THINGS, SHE GETS SO TO THE POINT I SOMETIMES DON'T WANT TO BE NEAR HER. I TRY SO HARD TO LET IT GO.I SURPRESS MY FEELINGS AND THEM I BLOW UP. THAT IS NOT HEALTHY.I DON'T THINK SHE KONOWS WHAT COMES OUT OF HER MOUTH. I LOVE HER VERY MUCH AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER EVEN LISTEN TO HER WHEN SHE HAS A BAD DAY OR COMPLAINS. THAT IS HARD.SHE HAS IT IN HER MIND THAT CAUSE I DON'T WORK I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. SHE DID NOT KNOW WHAT MY LIFE WAS WHEN I WAS YOUNG, MARRIED ETC.YOU DID NOT BABY ME ABOUT THE SEIZURES, LIKE SHE THINKS. YOU TOUGHEN ME SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE WHAT KIDS DID TO ME AND ADULTS.YOU TOLD ME THAT IN CASE ANYTHING HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE I WAS YOUNG, YOU WANTED ME TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE WHAT EVER LIFE BRINGS ME, AS I WAS THE NOT SO HEALTHY AS THE REST,I THANK GOD FOR THEM. I AM SO SORRY TO VENT ABOUT ROXI AND I. I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYBODY CAUSE I WANT NOBODY TO DISLIKE HER OR WHATEVER. THIS IS SISTER STUFF. SHE MEANS ALOT TO ME.I AM NOT PERFECT. YOU HEAR THAT ROXS? I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. WE ALWAYS WORK IT HOW.LOVE PEBS XOXOXOX BEAUTY, TOO!

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Marlene Pericola posted a condolence

Friday, October 30, 2009

This is for Roxanne, Rhonda, and your brother, I keep your mom's Memory card with me always, It makes a perfect book-marker, for that's were she belongs, where she can always be seen and always remembered. I know that your Mom watches over all of you each minute, she protects you in her own mystical way. She holds your hand each and every day.... DANCE WITH ME MOTHER I embrace the moment of this time, To clasp your hands tightly in mine, Being Blessed by God in Heaven above, I am entwined forever in your love, Let us twirl across the floor, Gracefully...we glide as if we are dancing on air, with the music softly flowing on into our hearts, onto our souls and down through are feet, Blended together, will we miss, not one beat, So, Dance with me Mother, Dance with me now, Loyal we are and always to be, Dance with me now, let our feelings be free, You have held me tight and protected me in fright, You sit with me on sleepless nights, You stand with me through thick and thin, In long tested trials, you have helped me to win, On this earth, there could never be, A better Mother, than you for me, The scenes in my mind that play over again, Deep love, devotion and courage you have always carried within, Entrusts in my heart that your love never fails, there is no better testament to my Mother you see, Than knowing you have danced through your whole life for me, So Please... Dance with me, Mother, Dance with me now, Loyal we are and always to be, Dance with me now, let our feelings be free Written By: Marlene Pericola Love Marlene

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Love & Hugs Pebs posted a condolence

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Hi Mom, it's been a while since I came here to write to you. I do talk to you as you know. We all miss you so much. Things are just happening to all of us. The kids are going to move in, I feel so bad for them as they try so hard, They have my luck....But I am trying to look at things in a better way, as they could be worse, just like you would do & say to me.Others have it worse...It will be hard for all of us, but thank God we are hear for them. I am still proud of them, no matter what. They are young & will survive & move on. I am going to the house, as the doc say's I need to go up there. I am scared because things will hit me hard. Please be there. We all love & miss you lots Mom. You are the Best. Please watch over us, & Beauty, too....xoxoooxoxx

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Roxi posted a condolence

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Mom, March 24th, 2009 There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you. I find comfort in haivng you with me on my lifes daily adventures. I wish you were here to give Sissy and I big hugs. You always made us feel better after you hugged us. Please watch over TonyJoe with your Angels and keep him in your prayers, he needs you now. Love and Miss you Mom. Roxi* P.S. Beauty too. xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxo

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Rhonda posted a condolence

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Dearest Mom, It's been a while since I wrote to you. I never stopped thinking & praying to you.So many things have happened, no-going. Beauty has diabetes & is in the vet hosp. She will be 14 this Sept.09. I am very happy that I had a lot of goods years with her. She was my rock, my daughter I never had, my best friend. I hope I made her happy as she made me. I will be having to give her 2 shots a day & watch her. I am very scared, I have such fear. I know she will die some day. Losing you was very hard, I can't bear to lose her. Not now. I want to make her as comfortable & happy-no pain. I guess this is a part of life. Mom when she does leave my arms, please take good care of her. Your proberly saying, you don't have to ask. Help me to be strong, it's so hard. She is my baby. Life, living,sickness,dieing is so hard. They never teach you how to deal with this. It's so important. I thank the Lord,Blessed Virgin Mary, the Saints, guardian Angels, my family, & in heaven. I love my John for being here for me. He is so special, Mom. I love you, miss you, wish you were here. Help me please with Beauty, I need to get strong. xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Your loving daughter, Rhonda xoxo posted a condolence

Monday, August 18, 2008

Hi Mom, Your Birthday wish is coming true. I am having a birthday party for you in celebrations of your life. I will have John, Pebs, Roxi, JJ,Tonyjo, Marie, Nona, Ralph, Cathy, Chris & the kids. We are going to a mass that is going to be for you only. Then we will have balloons & send them up to you & then a cake. I know you will be with us,so you will have a Birthday wish come true. We will all be together, as you wished, as we know we need & love each other. So, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM", We all love you & miss you very much.

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Rhonda Fitzsimmons posted a condolence

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Hi Mom, How are you doing? I miss you so much. Even though I am 53 yrs.old, I had a health problem, did'nt know what to do. I always came to you for the answers, I paniced & was scared, pray to you to help me out. When I went to the doc. to have my port flushed, I had asked him I felt stupid, but he helped me & all is ok. I really relied when I had a health issue, but you knew it all or told me what to do. 53 & I still need your help. Is that normal? Your garden with the flowers look so beautiful & the rose is doing real good. August is your birthday, I have a mass to be said for you.Every year I will as long as I am here on this earth & of your passing. Give Jesus a kiss for me & all my aunts & uncles & grandparents & a big kiss to you & a hug. I love you, Pebs xoxoxxoxoox

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Your Loving, Pebs xoxo posted a condolence

Saturday, May 10, 2008

HI MOM, TODAY IS SAT.THE DAY BEFORE "MOTHER'S DAY". I WANT TO WISH YOU A VERY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY IN HEAVEN. MOM, I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH I TOOK FOR GRANTED, THAT YOU, AUNT ANNA & MY DOCTOR, (ALL OF YOU WHO KNEW ME & MY WEAKNESS),WOULD LEAVE THE WORLD SOONER. I ALWAYS EXPECTED THAT YOU ALL WOULD STILL BE HERE. I REALIZE, THAT YOU SHOULD NEVER EXPECT THAT A PERSON IS HERE ONE DAY & GONE THE NEXT. I GUESS LIFE IS SHORT FOR SOME. BUT THE 3 THAT KNEW ME & WAS ALWAYS THERE IF I NEEDED HELP, TO TALK TO, OR JUST FEEL GOOD KNOWING YOUR HERE & THINGS WOULD BE GOOD, IF A BUMP ON A ROAD COMES UP. I FEEL LOST, ALONE, I AM RUNNING FOR HELP- TO TALK, THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMEONE THERE, NOBODY NOW, WHO KNOWS ME & MY FEARS. YES, I AM AN ADULT, BUT YOU ALWAYS HAVE SOMEONE, JUST 1 PERSON THAT YOU CAN GO TO. sORRY I AM TELLING YOU THIS ON MOTHER'S DAY, WHEN SIMONE HAD MARLEY & THEN HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL, I WAS SO SCARED FOR SIMONE, CHRIS & THE KIDS. I PANICED INSIDE MY SELF & CRY FOR YOU & GOD TO HELP HER. I DID WHAT HAD TO BE DONE WHICH WAS TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS & HELPING IN WHAT EVER WAY I COULD. I FELT INSIDE LIKE I WAS FIGHTING FOR HER LIFE,SIMONE'S. MOM I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH & WORRY ABOUT THEM. I CAN'T HELP THEM WITH MONEY, BUT I CAN BE THERE FOR THEM, IF NOT SICK. I LOVE MY COLE & MARLEY SO MUCH. THEY ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I LOVE SIMONE AS IF SHE WAS MY OWN DAUGHTER & CHRIS I LOVE, HE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY EYES AS A MOM, MY LITTLE BOY. YES, I DON'T TREAT HIM LIKE A LITTLE BOY, BUT BETWEEN MOMS WE CAN ALL SAY THAT. MOM, PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I AM RAMBLING ON THINGS I SHOULD NOT, DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOUR MOTHER'S DAY HORRIBLE. MOM, I DO WANT TO TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE THE BEST MOTHER ANY ONE WOULD WANT & I AM SO HAPPY I HAVE YOU. YOU TAUGHT ME A LOT, YOU LOVED ME SO MUCH, YOU WERE ALWAYS THEIR, YOU LOVE CHRIS SO MUCH GROWING UP WITH HIM & HOW HE LOVES HIS NONI. i HAVE TO GO. i LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. XOXOXOXO

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Loving daughter, Rhonda xoxo posted a condolence

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Happy Easter, Mom. John bought you an Easter Cross made of Palms. It had 2 lilies, but I took them off as I know You don't like them. Easter Day was very quiet in our house. Even though I spent Saturday with Cole, which I was so happy to spend with him, I took every moment with him, as though it was my last. I have been sick, can't fight the infection off. They are running out of antib.. to give me, even the chemo doc is helping.Mom, I want to spend and be there for Chris and Simone, she is having such a very hard pregnacy this time, she needs the love and support, but she does not want it from me. She saids she is fine, but I don't think so. Please Mom, let me help her, let her let me help her. Support she needs and to know we love her very much. I pray mom, I need help from above, God, the Blessed Mary, the Saints, everyone, please watch over my Simone, Marley,Cole & Chris. I love you and boy do I miss you......You were there for me, I just want to be there for her.....I know she is strong, but we all need support and love......

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Laura Lanza posted a condolence

Monday, February 4, 2008

Dear Rose Lee, You will always be in our prayers we miss and love you. xoxooxoxoxoxox Eternal Love, Joan & Laura

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Loving Pebs posted a condolence

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Dear Mom, A lot of time has passed. Christmas, New Year and now it's January 30, 2008. I was sick for Christmas and got sick after that.You are always on my mind and in my heart. I cry for you, I pray to you and I talk to you. Life is not the same without you. I still have times when I can't believe that you are not here. I have a throw that has your face pictured on it. I did that so I can put the throw around me and feel like you are holding and wrapping your arms around me so I feel safe. But I have not yet used it. I don't know why? I had John get balloons for you for the holidays and then we let them go up.This will have been your 2nd Christmas without us. We have all kinds of things on the Christmas tree of you. I lite the candle so you are with us for the holidays and birthdays. I gave Chris and Ralph a birthday party (little) one. I think Bob moved out today. Now we can get the up stairs cleaned, both rooms. I love you, so does Beauty & John xoxoxoxoxooxxo I also write to Tris.

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Your loving Pebs xoxo posted a condolence

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Dear Mom, Nov. 3rd was your 1 year anniv. since you have passed. I went to church, had balloons for you, which I hope you got. I could not write that day, or night, or the next. I was too sad, I miss talking to you, your support and how you believed in me.Nobody else does. Roxie give me the hardest time. She thinks I am stupid, I lived longer than her, been thru more then her and she likes to tell me how to think, live my life, do what she feels is right for me. Mom what did you bring in to this world. I do not tell her how to live her life, or whatever.... She has to learn like we all did. I want her to take care of herself, be happy, love people and life. Talk to her if you can. See, you are gone and we still bother you. Don't you feel loved? I love you very much and miss you lots. Simone is having a baby. Please watch over them, my kids and Cole. I love them very much..... Sweet dreams, Mom. Here is a hug and a kiss. xoxoxo

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Your Pebs xoxo loving posted a condolence

Friday, August 24, 2007

Hi MoM!! "Happy Birthday in Heaven", I did not forget you. Today I lite your candle. I hope you had a happy day today, with cake, balloons and all. Did you get our balloons, Mom? We had mass and at the house, John & I bought you roses, balloons for everyone so they could send them to you,I made a banner for you, wishing you a happy birthday. I wanted it to be like a party for you.I forgot to make a card, I am so sorry.Ilove you and miss you so much, I try not to cry and to be strong. I have to go for a pet scan, I am so scared, Mom, I just say, I am in yours hands, God. Please give me the strength and not to be afraid of the out come. Ilove you all xoxoxoxo Miss you all...xoxox Rhonda Happy Birthday MoM!!! Beauty loves and misses you too!!!!!

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Love your Pebbles posted a condolence

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Dear Mom, We are in August, yes the 24th you will be 74. I am having a mass for you on the 18th, as I did not get to the church early enough to have it said on your birthday. I sent notes to invite anyone who would like to be included. Mom, as time is going bye, for me, no matter how busy I am or try to be I can't stop crying for you. The words I miss you do not even come close to how I feel. Mom I have no one that I can talk to that is older then me, just to talk like we used to. I can talk to you now but you can't answer me, or hold me, or rub my face and tell me it's ok. or anything. Nobody can. Ralph or Roxanne are in their own world and they could not help me, they are young with young minds and have not experienced life like we have. Mom I am trying very hard, but I don't know if I can do it anymore.When I would do something or what ever, you would praise me, make me feel good about myself,tell me it's going to be ok, the support you gave me, nobody ever gave me.The time you said how beautiful I looked for Chris's reception, nobody ever said it with such meaning, you made me for the first time in my life feel beautiful.I love you so much, you made me feel so good.The compassion and how you would stand by me no matter what I choose to do, like get my breast done. I get no support, other then from you. When I use to go for chemo and see the families come in and support who ever it was, I was jealous, but happy for them also. I feel I am doing this alone and the support is not their, no matter what I choose no one will support me. It has to be their way. I support others, even if I disagree, but I won't tell them that because that is what they want. I have to fight for what ever I want. I am tired Mom, so very tired to have to explain to anyone, its my life. I am going thru alot and they just keep hammering me into the ground.Thank you for listening to me. I love you so much and miss you. Thank you for caring and making me feel good when you where here, on earth. You truly loved me unconditionally.With all my faults,that is true. Saying it and doing it are 2 different things. Now I know what true unconditionally love is.....YOU MOTHER xoxoxoxo

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Your loving Pebs xoxo posted a condolence

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Happy 4th of July, Mom!!! I am sure you have the best seat in heaven to watch the fire works. Mom, I went to the shore yesterday, to do your ashes, but we had to leave that night as Beauty, was not eating doing nothing. So we picked her up today & she is fine now. The place is runned by teenagers who don't have any feelings & love for dogs. Shame on the company who hired them. So we will do it before your birthday, so you can rest in peace. So far your ashes are in Pa., my garden, next by Roxanne's place where she got married. We both will do it. I just wanted to let you know. I love you & miss you so much....Be happy & look out for us all. I do worry about Roxi & Ralph, & Bobby too, as well as Chris. xoxoxooxxoxoxo

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Your loving daughter Rhonda xo posted a condolence

Monday, June 11, 2007

Hi Mom, Simone & I went to see Sylvia Browne. I wanted to ask her how do you come to me? Like what do you do when you are around me & my spiritual guides name. I am sure you knew I was there, I cried for my number to be picked, but as you know it was not. Why? Don't you want to talk to me or reach me thru her to tell me everything is ok. That I did nothing wrong when you passed away. About the money, anything. Now I feel that you don't want to talk to me. My heart aches, I miss you so much, I need for you to say its ok. That you still love me.They say you do in heaven, but I am starting to believe not for me. I am sorry Mom, that I could not understand you. You died trying to talk to me & I could not understand you, but I said I did so this way you were not straining yourself to talk. You died straining to talk & in such pain, your body all in a ball it was so hard to watch you die that way.There was nothing I could do, except hold you, rub your face & hair & try to let you know I am here, your not alone. I can't get it out of my mind. I talk to John about this alot & he said it was very painful to watch you die. This is what I can't get passed. To see you like that was so horrifing to me cause your body changed & I never seen anyone, espically you Mom go thru so much. What happens to the body as you are ready to leave it, in your condition, I never would want any of my love ones to ever experience it. It's hard cause your my Mom & I love you so much, that you don't want to see you suffer in any pain. I hope you understand what I am trying to say. You are a beautiful Lady, with lots of class. I thank you God for giving my Mom to us. I love you & miss you so much. Please don't think less of me.xoxxooxxooxxooxoxoxoxo

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Simone posted a condolence

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Hey Noni, We miss you dearly and know that you are now in a place of serenity and nirvana. Please watch over us and protect us and send all good prayers from above. We love you, Simone

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Jeannie Knopick posted a condolence

Friday, May 25, 2007

Since I only knew you for a short time, your uplifting personality will always be remembered

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Your loving daughter Rhonda posted a condolence

Friday, May 25, 2007

Hi Mom, I don't know how long they will have this site here, where we can talk and type to you.I realize now that you are really in Heaven with God and your Mom & Dad, & all your sisters & brothers and friends. We here on earth, is hell. I truly believe we are being tested here. I realize that your family you left behind, miss & love you very much.But they say that you in heaven don't want us to stop living,to go on with life, because you are happy where you are and that we here have it harder, with life, the world, stress, health & so forth...That you are praying for us.I tell you one thing, I rather be with you and God then to be here. It's too hard here. The problems are getting worse then ever, for my kids, & your own kids.I don't want the easy way out, just a break or a guide to what path to take. I pray to God, Mary, the angels and I thank them. What ever little good thing comes,I thank God, no matter how small because I beleive in hope, that is what I am holding on to. I wish you could come to me & just put your hand on my face or hair & say it's going to be ok. Please come to me I need to feel your presence Mom. When you died, I never was able to tell you I love you. I know you know, & you would not like us to cry for you. But its still hard. As old as I am, you always need your Mother's love. I am a Mom & a Nonna, I try so hard to be like you and do what you would be doing. I give my all to my grandson, no matter how I feel and try so hard to help the kids. But it's not enough. I don't know what I am doing wrong. Can you email me? Not be funning. They say you can even call & leave a message. I could never come close, as to walk in your shoes. Mom to me your a saint. I don't know how you did it. You were alone & in pain so much, you helped so many & I could go on. Mom we need you......Love you & miss you dearly....Pebs xoxxoxoxoxo

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Rhonda posted a condolence

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Happy Mother's Day, Mom. Oh God I miss you so much....I want to talk to you, see you and hold you so much. In your honor John and I did a beauiful Rose garden, with red roses, and all other pretty colored flowers. I have an angel with chimes to play for you, she lights up in the dark so you are not along and afraid. I want to get a statue of the Blessed Mother, and make her and paint her so you are not alone.I will have her Blessed. I am going to put your ashes in the garden and then I am going to have a ceremony for you.I will really have you close to me. Mom, I know you are looking down at me, I am a disappointment to you. I feel that because I am the oldest, I am not what you expected me to do. I am sorry. Please forgive me.I love with my heart, but it does not seem to be enough. Oh Mom, oh Mom, you are loved and missed so much by your kids.I feel so rotton inside that I did not see you more. I lost so much of you and now it's too late. I am learning from this. I love and miss my brothers and sis, so much.Roxie came over the other day and spent time with me. She talked to me and stay for a while. She was busy doing payroll. I miss them all so much..... I love you Mom, I miss my Mom and my Best friend....But I know you are in a better place. I can't wait until God calls for me and we will be together again. Here's a kiss and a hug..........

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Roxi posted a condolence

Sunday, May 13, 2007

"Happy Mother's Day Day In Heaven Mom" I hold you close in my Heart, and take you with me often. As a matter of fact you are going with me to St. Paul and Clevand. I hope we have a good trip. (For those of you who don't know, each of us has Mom with us, some of us wear her around our hearts and some have her displayed with much Love in her Urn. I of course have her all over! I miss you all the time and know that your Love is still with us. Prayers to you always Mom. I Love you! "Happy Mother's Day"! xoxooxoxo Roxi xoxoxoxoxo

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Roxi posted a condolence

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Mom, It still hurts, I miss you so much. So many times I go to pick up the phone to call you. I wish that you were here. Hugs and Kisses to you in Heaven. xoxooxoxoxoxoox

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Pebs posted a condolence

Friday, March 30, 2007

Mom,so many things have happened,I wish you were here to help give advice to me.I am the oldest and suppose to have the answers and I don't. Cole is getting so big and talks so good. He is such a sweetheart. He gets so excited when he learns something or does something new. You just want to take a bite out of him and eat him up.He laughs so cute, has the cutest smile, loves to kiss the girls and when he forgets my name out of excitement, he calls me Johnny. I just love it. Oh, how he loves his grandpa.He calls us up almost everyday to tell us something new and that he loves us. Mom I was blessed, with such a daughter-in-law, she's my daughter, such a good Mom and my son is such a good Dad. I love them all very much. The way you love us so much. I miss you Mom, I want to call you and talk to you everyday. It hurts not to be with you so much. I told John when I leave this world, I want your ashes (the holder) in my hands. I want Beauty there also and lots of pics of my family, to take with me and I could show you. Before you know it I will be there, right in your loving arms.Until then I am making a garden for you, with the angels, all kinds of flowers, a big cross with your name, an angel that lights up at night so you will not be in the dark, there is chimes on it. It will be call the Rose Garden. Tony will give me more of your ashes so You will be there when I pray and talk to you. I need to be close to you, Mom. Mothers Day is coming soon and I know you would want life to go on, but I find it very hard, I can't celebrate it. You are not here. I feel so empty inside, I'm a mother that lost a very dear loving Mother, I looked up to you Mom, when I hurt, you hurt and felt my pain, like I felt yours. We were so close and in tuned to each other. I don't have that with nobody else. I feel so alone in this world. Nobody hears me, my crys, my pain they such don't understand like the relationship we had. You were not only my Mom, but a real best friend and I miss my friend!!!! I Love you MoM, my Best Friend xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Roxi posted a condolence

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Mom, I miss you and wish you were here. Love Roxi xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Roxi posted a condolence

Friday, January 19, 2007

Mom, I miss you so much! Your room came out "Beautiful" Thank you so much for the comforter set and curtains, I can't believe you purchased extra curtains, I needed them for your room, I only wish you could have been here to stay with us. You could have never prepared us for this loss Mom, I cry all the time, my heart is so lost without you. We have had three Birthdays since you are gone, Rhonda's was first and how she cried, then Chris and Ralphie, I'm next and I don't want it to come, I know your not going to call or send your cards, I miss you so much. God Bless you Mom, there isn't a day that doesn't go by that I don't wish you were still here. I Love You Mom, Roxi xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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Stephanie Bellene & family posted a condolence

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

God blessed this beautiful woman into heaven to touch peoples lives as she did when she was here. I know her and my grandmother, Lorraine Eslinger, will enjoy each others company while looking upon all of their loved ones they left behind.

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Lori &Sal Bruzzese & family posted a condolence

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family . I know my Grandmother , Lorraine Eslinger, will welcome her with love and open arms and they will be together again laughing like old times.

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Diane Cook posted a condolence

Monday, November 13, 2006

My dear Aunt Rosie, I know you are now in a better place free from all pain and suffering and with your girlfriend Lorraine (My mother) I know she has taken you under her wing and comfroted you. I will always remember your laughter and smiles from childhood years and all the fun and excitement we always had when are familys were together and you brought out the best of humor in all. You will be sadly missed. I am very blessed to have had an Aunt as Special & full of life as you and I thank you for making my life and others to have something always to smile about. God bless you always. Love your neice, Diane

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Beverley Ferri posted a condolence

Sunday, November 12, 2006

My Dearest Aunt Rosie, I remember all the laughter and good times you shared with the family. As a young niece growing up I admired the joy and spunk of life you engulfed everyone in. You will be sadly missed by all. God Bless your precious heart and soulful ways you bestowed on me. Now you are in heaven with the angels and God. You can keep having joyful times there with my mom Lorraine Eslinger, Grandma & Grandpa Eslinger, Auntie Anna Eslinger, Uncle Joey Pitti,Uncle Eddy Waller, Uncle Collie Horvath with Aunt Mary, Uncle Bobby Eslinger, and Aunt Maryann Eslinger. Aunt Rosie, your spirit will always be with me. With all my Love, Niece Beverley Ferri

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Jean posted a condolence

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Castlemeyer, I will always remember you as the beautiful,crazy, tell it like it is, protective, warm and caring woman that we all love. I can still see you getting ready to go out with us,and me telling Roxi and Rhonda that you were the only person that took longer to get ready than Roxi! When my life hit those rough roads, you were there being one of my crutches until I could stand on my own again. Your shoulder was always there to cry on, and your words helped dry those tears more than once. But then again, you would have done that for anyone, because that is the special person you are. God blessed us all when he gave us you. We all love you and will miss you more than you could ever imagine. Say hi to Mema for me. I'll see you, Love always, Jean (Jeannie), Tommy and Holly

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Jean posted a condolence

Saturday, November 11, 2006

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Simone posted a condolence

Friday, November 10, 2006

Noni-Dear Noni, If only time could stand still on that Glorious Day… that the calm came over you and the Lord said…”It’s Ok” If only there were times, that you & I could just sit… about all of the things, you could reminisce. You could tell me about all of the days of joys and sorrows… all about the yesterdays, today’s and tomorrows. If only there was more of us time and less in between… there would be more I could have learned, loved and seen. I am so sorry we didn’t have the time to share our souls. But I know you are watching over us and especially Cole. For Chris & I will make sure he knew his Noni had a spectacular life. She was a Mother, Grandmother, Great Grandmother and wife. Well Noni, Dear Noni, my hello’s and goodbye’s are what I have to say. Because time did not stand still on that Glorious Day. God Bless You, Great Love - Simone

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Chris Zeris posted a condolence

Friday, November 10, 2006

"Noni" Where do I begin. I remember telling my friends, " I am going up to see my Noni this weekend and I can't hang out" My friends thought I was crazy, but that is how much joy & laughter you brought into my life. Those were the best days growing up for me. Now I have a family and I am asking that you look over Cole for Simone & I. Thank you for everything. "I Love You"

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Chris Zeris posted a condolence

Friday, November 10, 2006

"Noni" Where do I begin. I remember telling my friends, " I am going up to see my Noni this weekend and I can't hang out" My friends thought I was crazy, but that is how much joy & laughter you brought into my life. Those were the best days growing up for me. Now I have a family and I am asking that you look over Cole for Simone & I. Thank you for everything. "I Love You"

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Debbie & Charlie Colello posted a condolence

Thursday, November 9, 2006

Aunt Rosie, you were always so full of fun and so good to all. We will remember all the good times with you growing up. We love and miss you. We know you will add laughter to heaven.

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John Williams posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Dear Mom, You have departed this world through the tears of your children, only to live in our hearts, and thats where you will always be with love. You shall be missed, You shall be mourned and you shall be remembered for all the love and kindness you showed your children. I Love You. Your Son In Law, JJ

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Your loving Son-in-Law John posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

My Dearest Mother- in-Law, Mom, I wish that there had been a way to take away your pain. It was very hard to see what you had to go through for the last years of your life. How you were able to make it through those days will always be a mystery to me. You are an inspiration to all of us. I hope that the knowledge that you have the love of your children and grandchildren was of some comfort to you. The fact that you are no longer in pain and have moved on to your heavenly reward is a comfort for us at this time of grieving. You will always be loved and you will always be missed by me and by all of your children. Please pray for us and watch over us that we may be able to endure as much as you did. Love John

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With Love: Your Roxie and Rhonda posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Mom, (CastleMeyer)aka Countessia Queenie, Rosie We sent you my message three times, did you get it yet? Love Roxie Countessia) & Rhonda (Countessia Maritzia)xoxox

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In Loving Memory Mom, Love You, Roxi posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Mom, "Thank you" for allowing us to "Love" so "Unconditionally" when your "Heart" was so heavy. For helping our "Tears" turn to "Laughter" when we were hurting. For all the hours you spent making our cloths when we were young so we could look so "Beautiful". For the home made Animal Birthday cake you made for me that I truly "Loved". For taking care of us when we were sick and the "Love" you showed and gave to us. For all the "Fun" we had with you and how you made us "Laugh", "CastleMeyer". For always being there when (I, we) needed you. I Celebrate your "Life" and "Love" how "Blessed are those to have had you in their "Lives". I "Miss" you Mom and "Love" you very much and will always "Cherish" you and the "Love" you have given to so many. I will keep you close in my "Heart" always. May the "Angels" watch over you. "God Bless You" I Love You Mom, Roxi xoxox

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In Loving Memory From Roxi posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Mom, "Thank you" for allowing us to "Love" so "Unconditionally" when your "Heart" was so heavy. For helping our "Tears" turn to "Laughter" when we were hurting. For all the hours you spent making our cloths when we were young so we could look so "Beautiful". For the home made Animal Birthday cake you made for me that I truly "Loved". For taking care of us when we were sick and the "Love" you showed and gave to us. For all the "Fun" we had with you and how you made us "Laugh", "CastleMeyer". For always being there when (I, we) needed you. I Celebrate your "Life" and "Love" how "Blessed are those to have had you in their "Lives". I "Miss" you Mom and "Love" you very much and will always "Cherish" you and the "Love" you have given to so many. I will keep you close in my "Heart" always. May the "Angels" watch over you. "God Bless You" I Love You Mom, Roxi xoxox

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Roxi posted a condolence

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Mom, "Thank you" for allowing us to "Love" so "Unconditionally" when your "Heart" was so heavy. For helping our "Tears" turn to "Laughter" when we were hurting. For all the hours you spent making our cloths when we were young so we could look so "Beautiful". For the home made Animal Birthday cake you made for me that I truly "Loved". For taking care of us when we were sick and the "Love" you showed and gave to us. For all the "Fun" we had with you and how you made us "Laugh", "CastleMeyer". For always being there when (I, we) needed you. I Celebrate your "Life" and "Love" how "Blessed are those to have had you in their "Lives". I "Miss" you Mom and "Love" you very much and will always "Cherish" you and the "Love" you have given to so many. I will keep you close in my "Heart" always. May the "Angels" watch over you, "God Bless You" I Love You Mom, Roxi xoxox

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Your loving daughter, Rhonda posted a condolence

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

My Dear Loving MoM, I am so happy that we had precious time to talk to each other. MoM,I love you so much and I miss you, that it hurts so much.You are everything to me. When you hurt, I hurt, I felt your pain,you felt mine. We are so in tune with each other. You cried for me and asked GOD to take my pain and give it to you. But MoM your pain was so bad that you could not compare the two.I wanted to take your pain away from you and I couldn't.Now you are with God and he is taking care of you, no more pain. One thing you said, the hardest part about dieing,leaving your children behind. The hardest,is losing a MOM LIKE YOU!!

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Anonymous posted a condolence

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

In loving memory of

Rose

1933 - 2006